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magandang gising hahaha. i dont know i just feel happy today. everything was just right. siguro maganda lang talaga gising ko. and marami din akong nagawa today. no dull moment. plus si achi aga uwi and couzins went over. ayun kasi maraming tao. and basta ang bilis ng oras tas mejo maulan so hindi mainit ayun kaya ako in the mood =)
well kala ko kasi ang cause ng sunod sunod kong depression eh darkness...yeah attacks at night eh. nung nabasa ko kasi ung veronika decides to die, sabi dun isa sa cause ng depression ay kapag walang sunlight. pero today palagay ko, too much sun can cause depression din at bugnot hahahaha.....
uhm that kulit guy, hinihiritan na naman ako. well i just wanted to be polite and disprove na intimidating ako...*oh well tanggap ko naman na un ang utmost impression sakin ng mga tao* well partly let's say kasama un sa flowery words niya...hahaha i dont know up to when ako makakaiwas sa pagyaya niya mag-date. hay....ewan ko ba, bkt b ganun bakit ba walang matinong lalake...nakooooowwww. natawa ako sa pag-iwas niya sa topic. pano, gingagawa pang front na kesyo di na siya masaya sa gf niya, di daw compatible...ah lintek diba! banatan ko pa ng kayo talagang mga lalake ohhhh! eh tagal mong gf sabihin mo di compatible bobo ka pala eh ngaun mo lang naequate yan! (oi hindi ko naman sinabi ung bobo sa loob loob ko lang un, ung kayong mga lalake lang) eh kasi totoo naman, i really feel bad kapag nakakaencounter ako ng ganitong klase, akalain mo, they will start acting pathetic and bigo, but the truth is di lang talaga marunong makuntento......hayyyy sa dami n rin ng kalokohan ko dati, memorize ko na lahat ng uri ng pambobola, jusko! isang text or tawag p lng sakin lam ko na hilatsa...haiii, i wont let that be a plus pogi point on his part, well una sa lahat, wala siyang yagballs para i-settle yan within themselves, and worse, gagamitin pa para dumiskarte sa iba.....
as of my major minor problem (ung major ang adjective lol) yes minor kung tutuusin, ayun parang nauuntog na ko ng bahagya ah. nakakasawa din pala. ay talaga kung ayaw edi wag. na-realize ko sa dami din naman ng lumalapit sakin (ahem pero totoo naman walang halong yabang pramis) naisip ko bakit b ko nagddwell sa isang to, ay mahirap kapag di ka naaappreciate...dapat talaga di pinagpapapansin eh....sabi nga ng friend ko sana daw di pa huli ang lahat pag na-realize niya, sabi ko naman nako dude walang marerealize un...at mukhang nahuhuli na nga siya, shet ung helmet malapit na matanggal haiiiiiiiiii......ang gulo ko talaga, actually sila...ewan ko b nman
kasi naman feeling ko malas talaga ako sa mga relasyones...nakow parang roller coaster i swear parang see saw....ung gusto ko ayaw, ung gusto ako ayaw ko naman, pag may-i-exit na ko hahabol habol, tas ayaw ko naman ulet tas may mga dadating na panggulo na ayaw ko pa rin ====>>>ayyyy ako ang magulo ang gulo hahaha. nadala na ko eh sobrang nadala na....kaya di bale ng wlang jowa kesa saktan k lng diba.

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