napapadalas ang pagkainis ko ah. di ko na talaga maintindihan tong pinasok ko. simple lang naman sana pero hanggat magulo ang kausap mo wala talagang magulo ang lahat. nakakasakit nakakabuwisit, gusto mo bitawan pero ang hirap. dapat sanay na ko dito eh. dapat kayang kaya ko na. habang pinapatagal ko kasi lalo ko lang pinahihirapan ang sarili ko. panahon na rin para sumaya naman ako kesa naman ganito. bat ganun adik ata yun eh.
This entire application process is really tedious. I thought that being called for preres is good enough. Well of course it's just the beginning. Im just exagerrating when i say tired. Actually this observation period is way benign than u could imagine. Post-boards syndrome. Someone i know quitted after one duty (observership). Maybe i feel the same thing. I want a longer break. I want my free time, no responsibilities, no schedule to follow. Maybe i just enjoyed the relief of finishing the entire trail to becoming a doctor that i wanna enjoy it longer. Haist im still praying. Im so lucky actually that some would want to be in my position. But then sometimes following your heart could lead to better results. im still confused.
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