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4-7

im pissed. i thought this day is simply boring, like any other summer days. i dont know why things cant fall exactly as how i wanted it. maybe im running out of patience. i just dont understand why some people can manage to carry everything as if no emotions exist.

i thought then that everything is clear between the two of us, after that day of exchange of confessions re what really the hell is going on. the last time i remember that we talked about this high maintenance shit, i was about to turn my back and leave to untangle all the complications ive been dwelling in for the longest time, but he asked for a chance...a chance to do something about it.

i learned to just enjoy and simply make the most out of waiting, but then, here he comes talking about the future....he includes me, but those were jokes which i dont even know if somehow those were half meant, but all i know is that it pisses me.

i am truly bored, because its hard to manage something like this. keeping a relationship which i cant even call real, having someone whom i cant call mine, exchanging sweet words which i am not sure if he uttered sincerely.

i just cant understand him, that's why i concluded that it wouldnt really be the way i want it. he is always too safe, and the text he sent me a while ago was like a confirmation.

it hurts to keep someone who will keep you indefinitely. i know its my stupidity that i chose this kind of setup, i just dont know up to when i can take this.

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ampalaya

im still guilty of being mad. i dont know. pero cguro nga dahil may sumthing p ko sa mokong na un. nagagalit ako. at the same time naiisip ko p rin ung lahat ng nangyari. marami p ring tanong sa isip ko kung bakit nangyari lahat ng to. at ngaun kahit mahigit isang taon na parang pakiramdam ko kelan lng un. pero ang laki n ng pinagbago ng lahat...lalo na siya. lalo na sila...naiinis akong isipin na ako nagkakaganito pero siya ano balewala lahat. worse, mukhang masaya na siya. nakakagalit na ako hindi p rin totally ok....ano ba diba. hanggang kelan ko mararamdaman to. pero sa kabila nun palagi ko p rin siyang naiisip. isang malaking kahibangan. galit ako. nasasaktan ako.

tsk

dami kong gusto ikuwento eh last week pa kaso la ako enough time to blog it out. hay and im not feeling well nilalagnat ako kanina kaya tulog lang ako maghapon. cant wait for vacation...la p kong nagagawa nakakainis para akong nakatira ng isang boteng sleeping pills

hui

amf! binasa ko ung luma kong blogs dun sa friendster hahaha harrruuuuu un ung panahon ampalaya/bitter ocampo pa ako. ayyy grabe halatang hurt galore! at bakit parang ang galing ko mag-english dun! hahaha ganun ata pag pira-piraso ang puso naxxxxxxx mukhang soon ganon na naman ulet tatalino na naman ako hahaha punyeta ang sakit ng ulo ko sarap untog!