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i cant learn overnight

through with the 1st chapter of brant. now since ive learned that my exam on sat would include the specialty you have chosen plus general medicine, ive purchased radiology secrets to quickly scan on some important topics. this will all be in the name of faith. i know i should've studied earlier on and there's no other good weapon than a thorough preparation. while scanning on the book, i told myself what is this im doing. really coz if this is what i will do for the rest of my life i should be prepared. di ko talaga alam itong pinapasok ko. it's all in the name of love and practicality. but who knows, God might bring me the good news few days from now. this time around, im letting go of my being keen at details coz sometimes the harder you yearn for it, the farther it goes away, lalong nanggigigil lalong hindi binibigay. I have kept my expectations low and created plan B and plan C. oh well, God and I already agreed, Im letting Him at this point. kung para sa akin then be it. Amen

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