sweet nothings

A day before my birthday, Ike came here in Manila to take me out on a date. We went to MOA to give Vikings a try. Unluckily, the place was jam-packed with large groups of people. On our way to the reservation counter, I overheard the receptionist that most of the guests had their reservations two weeks ago...ooohhh watda...We went back to the mall and ate buffet in a different resto. The walk was becoming painful, we decided to transfer to Robinson's. The movie house was also full. Not our lucky day. Day 2, my birthday...after visiting the church we went for a lunch date at Cyma :)Chicken gyro is <3 Ike insisted that he wants to buy me a gift since the other day. He's the person who prefers giving a gift handpicked by me and not him, we ended up with a lovely wallet from xoxo and a blush from Nars :D The birthday dinner itself became a mini reunion especially with my college friends. It's nice to see good old friends. Unluckily, many were not able to attend.

ive been eyeing this set for quite some time...nanghihinayang lang tlga akong bilhin. since my sister sent us lots of make-ups and my other sissy bought online, i saw this being sold by the same ebay seller where she will buy so i decided to grab it. Time for my Lancome brushes to rest hehehe

Panic! We were told that there will be an exchange of tokens for co-residents and fellows a week before the party. It was a short notice that i got to worry what to give, not to mention the need to cut the budget since we are the ones who will shoulder the food (first year ehem). Thanks to my shopaholic prowess, i know where to find stuffs at a lower price. The secret to mass gift-giving is buying in bulk. Since i was short of time, there's no chance I could go to Divisoria and tiyangges to find cheap stuff. Besides, going there during this season is really "buwis-buhay" LOL... For the girls, I find it easier to find kikay gifts that could also be useful at the same time. These are Bath and Body works vanity case worth $10 each, i got them in bulk together with Victoria's Secret and Clinique cosmetic cases. Lot of 20 for only Php960 at Ebay. Thanks to my favorite seller http://myworld.ebay.ph/jnlink777 for saving the day! I also added up these Bon Bons fl

last night we were finally able to reunite. jaja, tian jen, tel minus sheng and esthy. fun fun fun. nakakamiss ang rashberries. chismisan, food trip, sayang we were not able to watch a movie. looking forward to more bonding sessions even though we're already out of med school. how time flies... :D but it's just like meeting up the other day, no dull moment :D

today i am home early. dropped by the mall and grabbed a new pair of flats 50% off the price. i finally purchased sm advantage card.bought a new concealer and an eyelash curler...then dropped by the grocery to buy ingredients for salsa and of course tortilla chips :D yey i am successful in my first attempt to make salsa :D the wonder of retail therapy :D happiness :)btw thanks our intern who taught us how to make one

the sched is finally in favor of me. half day last friday, no work for sat, home early last sunday, sent home early today, was able to see ike and watch the breaking dawn. had lunch and dinner together. received a good news that a dear friend is engaged. seems like a good way to start the week. well i still feel the need to catch up some reading and take it more seriously. waiting for some announcements tom. :D gudnytie

Signs that it’s time to end a relationship… You have a feeling of continuous frustration about the relationship (E.g., your emotional needs are not being met) You’re finding more reasons to spend time apart You’re being emotionally abused You no longer have strong feelings about your partner but reminisce about the feelings you used to have You’ve changed your core values, beliefs and goals to accommodate your partner in hopes that your relationship will no longer be problematic You’ve made drastic changes in your appearance hoping your partner will find you more attractive You have a growing feeling of emptiness You’ve put extreme distance or totally cut off former close relationships you used to have with your other friends and/or family

24th, our 26th month as a couple, we decided to take a trip to tagaytay. hehe ike who lived in baguio for almost his entire life havent seen the beauty of tagaytay yet :P we headed to Leslie's and enjoyed our afternoon there with their famous bulalo :)) simple joys...

26th of oct around 8pm, i received a call from dr fernandez....the first time i picked up it was choppy, he called again. "leiza pwede ka na ba pumasok sa november 2? me: ahhh yes doc...."tanggap na kayong tatlo" ok this was least expected. i actually took it as negative when he texted about the delay of results. i already asked for a sched this november at biomedics. but then, maybe this is God's will. everything that has happened was part of a bigger plan. im happy, and at the same time i feel at a lost and anxious. ill take it from ike, just live it one day at a time. i wish everything will just be fine. bahala na :D to God be the Glory. this is for my family :))

im back from my last week's drama. God is super good! i only asked for at least 4 reliever status and yet he gave me more than double. just when i expected it least i was given work while waiting for residency result. :)) really hopeful to have the results this week. it's really easier when you earn and preoccupied by a busy day. no time for drama. in fact i am enjoying and considering doing this for a longer time. at least if ever i wouldnt be accepted i have a job waiting for me :)) no unproductive gaps...nways looking forward to seeing ike today. Good Monday and Good Morning!!! Life is fun :))

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received an sms earlier today regarding my application status..."doctors good day. we will have to delay our final decision for our 1st year residents. we will make our decision by the last week of october and inform you asap. sorry for the delay" at first my innocent mind said oh ok so wishful thinking and patience then. but when i talked to ike, i started to think the other way...what if there's something else. 3 slots, for 3 applicants, what other cause might be there. why will it take that long before they could finally decide?  what if they dont feel like having us. another thing popped in my mind, i shouldnt have let go of the other opportunities. but who could have told me ayt? everything ran for almost same schedules. i regret not continuing my preres to that other hospital who contacted me again last week. and now i dont have the guts to contact them to ask again for another chance, since they have been too kind to have offered that to me already....moving on, i

finally nakakaramdam na ako ng gutom! ive been anxious since last night. good thing ike rehearsed me for today's final interview. it went on for around 10 minutes. and then that's it. i think i was able to answer fast, everything was from the heart, not the chaka miss universe answers. the questions were not so pressing, nor not provocative for me to answer plastic answers. i think it really works to just be yourself. in that way, everything will be superfluous. ive been palpitating since i took a cup of coffee this morning, and ive been cursing it, but eventually i realized it helped me in becoming attentive and alert during the Q and A :) again, i feel nothing. i expect none. whatever the result will be i think i did my best :) God will give me the answer soon. im ready for whatever outcome to unfold. :P

tomorrow is my final interview. done with the two weeks of observation period. of course the usual, not everyone there seems nice. but i guess wherever i go, jerks are along the way. maybe the only difference is how subtle other jerks could be. again, i am plainly emotionless. i don't want to anticipate anything. no expectations, no whatever. like ike said, this is a roadless map... the past days i took the chance to rest. i started on thinking about future plans, but then, what works for me is living for today. plans are good, but i don't want to keep on dwelling on the future. sudden unexpected changes may ruin it anyways. I'll let God this time. just keeping the faith going :) Uberrimei fidei Of the utmost good faith

This entire application process is really tedious. I thought that being called for preres is good enough. Well of course it's just the beginning. Im just exagerrating when i say tired. Actually this observation period is way benign than u could imagine. Post-boards syndrome. Someone i know quitted after one duty (observership). Maybe i feel the same thing. I want a longer break. I want my free time, no responsibilities, no schedule to follow. Maybe i just enjoyed the relief of finishing the entire trail to becoming a doctor that i wanna enjoy it longer. Haist im still praying. Im so lucky actually that some would want to be in my position. But then sometimes following your heart could lead to better results. im still confused.

Why do all of a sudden it doesnt feel ryt :( i dont feel happy with where i am ryt now haist im not sure if im doing the right thing. It's almost here but i cnt find myself interested. In fact i am so bored :( i dont know how to get away from this

suddenly i felt anxious. sadly this day did not turn out productive. i havent read a thing yet, except some trivial preparations i did to qualify for application. phase two is on tomorrow. my 1st day as a preres. no orientation whatever...im clueless and completely anxious. i just wish the people i will be working with will be easy to get along with...i hope tomorrow will be a sign if i will go on...whew gudluck to me

wow finally i found my old blog, i thought tlagang wala akong entry for how many years...pero i noticed tlga atang no single post for 2010. ive gone through the old posts ha, in fairness ang cheesy cheesy ko hahaha.yuck! but still i enjoy looking back at those posts. i realized how time changed me, the people around me...some have stayed, and of course maraming bago :) puro whining about med school bout ** basta siya. i was right things will fall into proper places, pati na rin ang pag consolidate ko sa blog ko hahaha. from now on ill be posting on only one. and ill try to import na rin my journal entry from my itouch para magka 2010 man lang hahaha trying hard lang para dumami. coz i know i will be busy na ulit this coming weeks. i dont know if i will still be able to do this. i think i need to sleep na. it's been a long day

after being bored and bummed with all the application process, etc...etc...this week came in with major twists...i was even planning to apply for at least 1 more hospital because of the fear that i might not be called by any of the three i have applied for. i am lucky that all those three hospitals called me for preres. at least the light is showing up little by little. truly prayers work...without fail :) i even had a chance to try a stint for a drug company this week. hahaha i was able to use my steth and trodat which i might not use anymore. hopefully i could get in to any of the three. one step at a time. I know God is watching over. :)) tomorrow is another day, back to studying...

Date with ike today. Bad thing marcos high way is closed. It took him 8 hrs awww we've been together for 8 hrs then he's on his way up to north again. The routine is lyk this for the past more than 1 yr. I cant complain bcoz bet the two us he sacrifices more than i do. Looking back he has kept his promise without fail. I know that a better tom awaits us. God has a good plan i have faith. I love you so much papa :)

through with the 1st chapter of brant. now since ive learned that my exam on sat would include the specialty you have chosen plus general medicine, ive purchased radiology secrets to quickly scan on some important topics. this will all be in the name of faith. i know i should've studied earlier on and there's no other good weapon than a thorough preparation. while scanning on the book, i told myself what is this im doing. really coz if this is what i will do for the rest of my life i should be prepared. di ko talaga alam itong pinapasok ko. it's all in the name of love and practicality. but who knows, God might bring me the good news few days from now. this time around, im letting go of my being keen at details coz sometimes the harder you yearn for it, the farther it goes away, lalong nanggigigil lalong hindi binibigay. I have kept my expectations low and created plan B and plan C. oh well, God and I already agreed, Im letting Him at this point. kung para sa akin then be i

I heard, that you're settled down. That you, found a girl and you're married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you. Old friend, why are you so shy? It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie. I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited. But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded, That for me, it isn't over. Nevermind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best, for you too. Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead" Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah. You'd know, how the time flies. Only yesterday, was the time of our lives. We were born and raised in a summery haze. Bound by the surprise of our glory days. I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight i

for the past years, i have always been organized...i always plan ahead of time. i know what i want to do and i see to it that my plans would reach reality...not until after passing the boards. although i know what path to take, still there is no certainty in this competitive and hierarchic world of MDs. not that i am not confident of my ability. i have set a good academic record and board rating. i came from one of the top medical schools in the country, but still, I am afraid...afraid of not knowing what's in store for me. Afraid of becoming in a strange place, with strange people, and some strange areas of study, but without other choice but to do good because this will determine my life long career as a doctor...Only God knows...at this point, my mind cannot project the picture of tomorrow, as how i have always done in the past....I put my faith in Him for God has the best plans for me...Amen

i just wanna take note of what i used for my oath taking because ages from now i might forget it :) hair--david's salon, stylist: unknown (kasi may kwento ito next tym na) make-up: leiza joy hahahaha F na F ko face-revlon new complexion in sand beige -loreal visible lift firming in buff concealer-mary kay in ivory 1 eyes: lancome in sunlit, cappucino, and oasis bronze mary kay eyeliner maybelline impact express smoothfelt liner maybelline volum express mascara blush: mary kay mineral cheek color in shy blush lips: nyx in eros + carmex moisturizing lip balm :) i wanna be a make-up artist!

today i woke up with my hair still in mousse and hair spray (witch). ive been so tired last night that the last thing i was able to do was brush my teeth and wash my face *sucks*. crammed again, i felt the need to be productive even at its slightest sense. i arranged all my requirements, grouped them all, printed letters etc, and i noticed it's almost lunch time. good thing my ever loving dad volunteered to drive me to my 1st hospital stop (secret muna)  to submit my application. But the long line to the cashier took more than 30 mins, after which, the application form was handed to me (by the not so accommodating secretary who address doctors as "miss" duh) and i have to fill it up yet, which took me another 25 mins. i dont know if it was all worth it. im not sure if i really like it there. looks like a busy, uncomfy place. anyways just for the sake of somehow accomplishing something today. another application tom. may God guide me...

yesterday marked a very memorable occasion, i finally took my oath as a licensed physician. yipee. it was kinda stressful but nonetheless a very joyous afternoon. Uttering the Hippocratic Oath was a mixed feeling of triumph and at the same time the weight of responsibility attached to it. Beside me were my friends whom I've been with through the ups and downs of med school. It was a nice feeling that our parents were there to witness the fruit of their labor. not everyone is given the chance to study medicine, and i am one of those lucky people who've been sent to med school and was supported all the way by my parents, in all aspects. Sadly, it was a quick program, after which i was not able to see some friends whom i wanted to have photo taken with. the evil heels hit again hahaha. I realized maybe it will be a long time before I will see good friends again. Everyone will take different paths of their own...Gone are the days of eating together, of mocking and fooling around, *

oh wow, it's been two years since the last time i posted. been very busy and i feel it's now hard to fill in the gap of the last two years i haven't added any blog entry. so what happened to me, let's have a quick time machine ride. after the last time i did a post here, i think that was 3rd year med school finals, i successfully entered 4th year med school. done clerkship (alipinship) at ospital ng maynila medical center. it was a year full of hardship but of course everything ends with graduation. yipee had my diploma in doctor of medicine and was entitled to use m.d. at the end of my name. everything went too fast, but i was thankful everything was right on time. i had my postgraduate internship at United Doctors Medical Center. this was so far the best part of my journey in becoming a full-fledged doctor. I met new friends who of course became very close to my heart. we've shared so many unforgettable moments, gimiks, parties, happy times and once in a whi