sweet nothings

Why do all of a sudden it doesnt feel ryt :( i dont feel happy with where i am ryt now haist im not sure if im doing the right thing. It's almost here but i cnt find myself interested. In fact i am so bored :( i dont know how to get away from this

suddenly i felt anxious. sadly this day did not turn out productive. i havent read a thing yet, except some trivial preparations i did to qualify for application. phase two is on tomorrow. my 1st day as a preres. no orientation whatever...im clueless and completely anxious. i just wish the people i will be working with will be easy to get along with...i hope tomorrow will be a sign if i will go on...whew gudluck to me

wow finally i found my old blog, i thought tlagang wala akong entry for how many years...pero i noticed tlga atang no single post for 2010. ive gone through the old posts ha, in fairness ang cheesy cheesy ko hahaha.yuck! but still i enjoy looking back at those posts. i realized how time changed me, the people around me...some have stayed, and of course maraming bago :) puro whining about med school bout ** basta siya. i was right things will fall into proper places, pati na rin ang pag consolidate ko sa blog ko hahaha. from now on ill be posting on only one. and ill try to import na rin my journal entry from my itouch para magka 2010 man lang hahaha trying hard lang para dumami. coz i know i will be busy na ulit this coming weeks. i dont know if i will still be able to do this. i think i need to sleep na. it's been a long day

after being bored and bummed with all the application process, etc...etc...this week came in with major twists...i was even planning to apply for at least 1 more hospital because of the fear that i might not be called by any of the three i have applied for. i am lucky that all those three hospitals called me for preres. at least the light is showing up little by little. truly prayers work...without fail :) i even had a chance to try a stint for a drug company this week. hahaha i was able to use my steth and trodat which i might not use anymore. hopefully i could get in to any of the three. one step at a time. I know God is watching over. :)) tomorrow is another day, back to studying...

Date with ike today. Bad thing marcos high way is closed. It took him 8 hrs awww we've been together for 8 hrs then he's on his way up to north again. The routine is lyk this for the past more than 1 yr. I cant complain bcoz bet the two us he sacrifices more than i do. Looking back he has kept his promise without fail. I know that a better tom awaits us. God has a good plan i have faith. I love you so much papa :)

through with the 1st chapter of brant. now since ive learned that my exam on sat would include the specialty you have chosen plus general medicine, ive purchased radiology secrets to quickly scan on some important topics. this will all be in the name of faith. i know i should've studied earlier on and there's no other good weapon than a thorough preparation. while scanning on the book, i told myself what is this im doing. really coz if this is what i will do for the rest of my life i should be prepared. di ko talaga alam itong pinapasok ko. it's all in the name of love and practicality. but who knows, God might bring me the good news few days from now. this time around, im letting go of my being keen at details coz sometimes the harder you yearn for it, the farther it goes away, lalong nanggigigil lalong hindi binibigay. I have kept my expectations low and created plan B and plan C. oh well, God and I already agreed, Im letting Him at this point. kung para sa akin then be i

I heard, that you're settled down. That you, found a girl and you're married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you. Old friend, why are you so shy? It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie. I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited. But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded, That for me, it isn't over. Nevermind, I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best, for you too. Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead" Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah. You'd know, how the time flies. Only yesterday, was the time of our lives. We were born and raised in a summery haze. Bound by the surprise of our glory days. I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight i

for the past years, i have always been organized...i always plan ahead of time. i know what i want to do and i see to it that my plans would reach reality...not until after passing the boards. although i know what path to take, still there is no certainty in this competitive and hierarchic world of MDs. not that i am not confident of my ability. i have set a good academic record and board rating. i came from one of the top medical schools in the country, but still, I am afraid...afraid of not knowing what's in store for me. Afraid of becoming in a strange place, with strange people, and some strange areas of study, but without other choice but to do good because this will determine my life long career as a doctor...Only God knows...at this point, my mind cannot project the picture of tomorrow, as how i have always done in the past....I put my faith in Him for God has the best plans for me...Amen

i just wanna take note of what i used for my oath taking because ages from now i might forget it :) hair--david's salon, stylist: unknown (kasi may kwento ito next tym na) make-up: leiza joy hahahaha F na F ko face-revlon new complexion in sand beige -loreal visible lift firming in buff concealer-mary kay in ivory 1 eyes: lancome in sunlit, cappucino, and oasis bronze mary kay eyeliner maybelline impact express smoothfelt liner maybelline volum express mascara blush: mary kay mineral cheek color in shy blush lips: nyx in eros + carmex moisturizing lip balm :) i wanna be a make-up artist!

today i woke up with my hair still in mousse and hair spray (witch). ive been so tired last night that the last thing i was able to do was brush my teeth and wash my face *sucks*. crammed again, i felt the need to be productive even at its slightest sense. i arranged all my requirements, grouped them all, printed letters etc, and i noticed it's almost lunch time. good thing my ever loving dad volunteered to drive me to my 1st hospital stop (secret muna)  to submit my application. But the long line to the cashier took more than 30 mins, after which, the application form was handed to me (by the not so accommodating secretary who address doctors as "miss" duh) and i have to fill it up yet, which took me another 25 mins. i dont know if it was all worth it. im not sure if i really like it there. looks like a busy, uncomfy place. anyways just for the sake of somehow accomplishing something today. another application tom. may God guide me...

yesterday marked a very memorable occasion, i finally took my oath as a licensed physician. yipee. it was kinda stressful but nonetheless a very joyous afternoon. Uttering the Hippocratic Oath was a mixed feeling of triumph and at the same time the weight of responsibility attached to it. Beside me were my friends whom I've been with through the ups and downs of med school. It was a nice feeling that our parents were there to witness the fruit of their labor. not everyone is given the chance to study medicine, and i am one of those lucky people who've been sent to med school and was supported all the way by my parents, in all aspects. Sadly, it was a quick program, after which i was not able to see some friends whom i wanted to have photo taken with. the evil heels hit again hahaha. I realized maybe it will be a long time before I will see good friends again. Everyone will take different paths of their own...Gone are the days of eating together, of mocking and fooling around, *

oh wow, it's been two years since the last time i posted. been very busy and i feel it's now hard to fill in the gap of the last two years i haven't added any blog entry. so what happened to me, let's have a quick time machine ride. after the last time i did a post here, i think that was 3rd year med school finals, i successfully entered 4th year med school. done clerkship (alipinship) at ospital ng maynila medical center. it was a year full of hardship but of course everything ends with graduation. yipee had my diploma in doctor of medicine and was entitled to use m.d. at the end of my name. everything went too fast, but i was thankful everything was right on time. i had my postgraduate internship at United Doctors Medical Center. this was so far the best part of my journey in becoming a full-fledged doctor. I met new friends who of course became very close to my heart. we've shared so many unforgettable moments, gimiks, parties, happy times and once in a whi