sweet nothings

They work with herbs and penicillin. They work with gentlenessand the scalpel. They dig out the cancer, close an incisionand say a prayerto the poverty of the skin. They are not Godst hough they would like to be; they are only humantrying to fix up a human. Many humans die. They die like the tender, palpitating berriesin November. But all along the doctors remember:First do no harm. They would kiss if it would heal. It would not heal. If the doctors cure then the sun sees it. If the doctors kill then the earth hides it. The doctors should fear arrogance more than cardiac arrest. If they are too proud, and some are, then they leave home on horseback but God returns them on foot.

ive been thinking of some happy thoughts..well not the happiest though. and honestly, thinking doesnt make me happier either. just last week (or was that the other week) was a not so good incident. i dont know if that was the DEFINITE END of his existence in my life. I was truly upset. Prior to this he already gave me an early warning that I became a cause of a fight bet him and his gf. I havent thought after backing off that there would still be a recurrence. ARGH it sounded stupid and really triggered my anger alarm. First of, i was upset because honest to goodness our loss of communication is a BIG sacrifice on my part. and another thing, i hate being tagged as homewrecker. I feel for the girl, well i know how it feels to get hurt, be jealous and all, and though its easy to comprehend the existence of a girl-boy friendship, ours is a different story, its a girl-boy friendship turned into romance then back into friendship. i know i know its difficult to believe that it is as plai

bakit malapit na ang may??!! gosh the first month of our vacation passed too swiftly wahhhh! ung first two weeks ng bakasyon was like *i am paralyzed* palagi ko sinasabi "shit boring hindi ako sanay sa ganito, di ako sanay na di toxic di ako sanay na di pagod at di ako sanay na hindi nagiisip ng maraming bagay bagay! hayyyy sakit ni leiza sobrang mainiping tao lalo pag bakasyon. pero nung nakita ko sa kalendaryo na malapit na ang mayo grrrrr bakt ganon ang nafeel ko bitin! hay talaga oh magulo talaga ako! daming gawa, daming gawa, pero na-realize ko namiss ko magtrabaho. yep buti na lang maraming work sa lab lately at kailangan ng back up haha. kanina habang sangkatutak ang gawain at busy busyhan ako, naisip ko, hay miss ko rin ang ganito, miss ko maging medtech ah...lalo na nung nahawakan ko ung pipet para gumawa ng blood chem, at gumagawa ng creatinine, nagtitimpla ng picric acid *oo tama ang pagkakaalala niyo ang Jaffe Reaction LOL* hay miss na miss ko sobra, dahil clinical c

magandang gising hahaha. i dont know i just feel happy today. everything was just right. siguro maganda lang talaga gising ko. and marami din akong nagawa today. no dull moment. plus si achi aga uwi and couzins went over. ayun kasi maraming tao. and basta ang bilis ng oras tas mejo maulan so hindi mainit ayun kaya ako in the mood =) well kala ko kasi ang cause ng sunod sunod kong depression eh darkness...yeah attacks at night eh. nung nabasa ko kasi ung veronika decides to die, sabi dun isa sa cause ng depression ay kapag walang sunlight. pero today palagay ko, too much sun can cause depression din at bugnot hahahaha..... uhm that kulit guy, hinihiritan na naman ako. well i just wanted to be polite and disprove na intimidating ako...*oh well tanggap ko naman na un ang utmost impression sakin ng mga tao* well partly let's say kasama un sa flowery words niya...hahaha i dont know up to when ako makakaiwas sa pagyaya niya mag-date. hay....ewan ko ba, bkt b ganun bakit ba walang matinon

magandang gising hahaha. i dont know i just feel happy today. everything was just right. siguro maganda lang talaga gising ko. and marami din akong nagawa today. no dull moment. plus si achi aga uwi and couzins went over. ayun kasi maraming tao. and basta ang bilis ng oras tas mejo maulan so hindi mainit ayun kaya ako in the mood =) well kala ko kasi ang cause ng sunod sunod kong depression eh darkness...yeah attacks at night eh. nung nabasa ko kasi ung veronika decides to die, sabi dun isa sa cause ng depression ay kapag walang sunlight. pero today palagay ko, too much sun can cause depression din at bugnot hahahaha..... uhm that kulit guy, hinihiritan na naman ako. well i just wanted to be polite and disprove na intimidating ako...*oh well tanggap ko naman na un ang utmost impression sakin ng mga tao* well partly let's say kasama un sa flowery words niya...hahaha i dont know up to when ako makakaiwas sa pagyaya niya mag-date. hay....ewan ko ba, bkt b ganun bakit ba walang m

amf! binasa ko ung luma kong blogs dun sa friendster hahaha harrruuuuu un ung panahon ampalaya/bitter ocampo pa ako. ayyy grabe halatang hurt galore! at bakit parang ang galing ko mag-english dun! hahaha ganun ata pag pira-piraso ang puso naxxxxxxx mukhang soon ganon na naman ulet tatalino na naman ako hahaha punyeta ang sakit ng ulo ko sarap untog!

langya lakas na naman ng topak ko. its my sister's grad today and yeah enuf tickets for me to join them. haha at dahil sa mababaw na dahilan na wala akong maisip isuot ay hindi ako sumama. crap diba ako ba ay slash tinatamad o talagang bilog lang ang buwan. hay sumasakit din kasi ang ulo ko. nga lang di naman ako makatulog. buti n nga rin to para maaga akong makatulog mamayang gabi... ayan nalulungkot tuloy ako dito sa bahay....tampururot eching!

amf! binasa ko ung luma kong blogs dun sa friendster hahaha harrruuuuu un ung panahon ampalaya/bitter ocampo pa ako. ayyy grabe halatang hurt galore! at bakit parang ang galing ko mag-english dun! hahaha ganun ata pag pira-piraso ang puso naxxxxxxx mukhang soon ganon na naman ulet tatalino na naman ako hahaha punyeta ang sakit ng ulo ko sarap untog!

another boring day had passed, and i do not even know how i was able to handle the past weeks of this vacation without losing sanity. this morning i woke up feeling emoshitty *again* hell yeah the same old issue of my 'pseudorelationship' but then again ended up letting all my plans pass. haist im still in between, i cant make up my mind whether to drop him or not. i wanna drop him coz i feel hanging, but then i think that feeling of "hanging" is fairly relative, that would depend whether how much i cling on to this...i thought i can still handle suppressing the feeling of being in-love with the fact that we dont see each other for some time now. well its just that, i wanted to know whether ill be getting something good out of this, hay forget it....might as well enjoy the moment coz either way it will hurt if its gonna hurt. but i still pray that if this aint going somewhere better i just hope letting go wouldnt be terribly hurtful.... i felt so guilty today for exce

habang nagchichikahan kame ni jaja last night dahil sa mga pangyayaring di ko inaasahan (kinukuwento ko ung mga buraot) naputol ang usap dahil manonood daw siya ng the pursuit of happiness. ayun nakinuod na rin ako. kuwento ni Chris Gardner....hay, nakakalungkot pero talagang na-inspire ako sa movie na to....NAKAKABILIB. ang igsi lng nung movie pero talagang heart warming. pero isa siguro sa na-reflect ko eh ung FOCUS. sobrang focused niya kasi sa goal niya, kung ano ang gusto niya un lang talaga. wala lang, naisip ko lang dapat ganon din ako hehehe. nakakaiyak ung scene na sa banyo sila natulog mag-ama.....hay, nakakalungkot isipin na may mga taong nakakaexperience ng ganon....pero lahat ng hirap nila, talagang nag pay off din naman =) sipag talaga at diskarte...wahehehe apektado daw talaga ako sa movie, di ko kasi napanood yan dati eh hehe =) TRUE STORY siya galing!

pasalubong ni achi to hongkong style noodles hehehe ayun masaya ako, ngayon ko nga lang nasabi kc last week pa to eh, tas tinatamad akong mag-blog. nung weekend galing ako kay pawikan, dun ako natulog. badminton, tambay...a not so good day. may mga buraot kasing papansin sa buhay ko. grrrrr ewan ko b naman kung bakit ako lapitin ng mga kaguluhan. kumusta naman tagal tagal na eh nadadamay pa ko sa mga kadramahan ng buhay nila. kinabukasan greenhills galore hehehe salamat kay pawikan at masayang nasimulan ang linggo ko. ngaun, more energy mas happy. pero nagiisip pa rin ako ng mga bagay bagay. hay paulit ulit na lang to kakabuwisit na. sana talaga mabigyang linaw na lahat dahil ayoko ng mag dwell sa mga useless na tao. sayang energy, sayang luha, sayang lahat.

napapadalas ang pagkainis ko ah. di ko na talaga maintindihan tong pinasok ko. simple lang naman sana pero hanggat magulo ang kausap mo wala talagang magulo ang lahat. nakakasakit nakakabuwisit, gusto mo bitawan pero ang hirap. dapat sanay na ko dito eh. dapat kayang kaya ko na. habang pinapatagal ko kasi lalo ko lang pinahihirapan ang sarili ko. panahon na rin para sumaya naman ako kesa naman ganito. bat ganun adik ata yun eh.

bags, why not talk about bags. since i am certifiably a bagaholic, i would like to share to you my mini collection--for the love of bags ^__^ these are my cuties =) mukha silang pambata LOL the totes, the big ones yung tipong pang outing at panglayas hehe the creams. i just love cream bags kasi madali sila bagayan. dainty din but unlike white hindi masyado madumihin the pinks and reds =) the twins==> just because i wanted the same bag iba lang kulay hehehe and of course my current favorites==> ala parang lately sila ung nakakahiligan ko bitbitin and the rest of my bags: tapos these bags naman are the older ones, yung mga di na ginagamit masyado Q: where do i buy these bags? A: marami, sa malls siyempre, from ebay, mga fairs at tiyangge. and since im a sucker for bargains kaya pati ukay ukay minsan napapagdiskitahan ko hehehe. Q: why bags? A: becoz i am a student for a very long period. since mukhang forever akong nakauniform, my love for clothes was diverted in

Pseudo-relationships...The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage. Others call it MU or mutual understanding. (pwde rin MisUnderstanding.. Malabong Usapan.. and the like.. ) Pseudo-relationships. Pseudo-boyfriends. Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends, but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may verbal agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi. babae lagi ang lugi. Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if you feel jealous of t

kahapon--movie with jaja @ greenhills. hay init...were obviously bored big time hahaha and im glad ginabi ako ng uwi...we really wanted to kill time =) today-- wla i just do not know pano nauubos ang oras ko maghapon doing nothing, at magbusy busyhan kahit na nonproductive naman....haist ang boring talaga bored bored bored at ang init init

masaya ako naayos ko na sa wakas ang multiply ko. wahehe. tagal ko ng hindi nakapag edit ha at oh no ang bano ko na maghtml etc...nakalimutan ko na kung panu gawin kaya ang tagal kong nakatunganga sa harap ng pc. oh well natapos din, di p nga lang masyadong plantsado, kulang p ng tweaks wahehe iisipin ko na muna, tas ung friendster ko naman aynaku mahirap mag adik ha...hulaan niyo, di p ko naliligo wahahaha ayus parang 10 am pa ata ako nagstart kumusta halos 4 pm na nyak!

im pissed. i thought this day is simply boring, like any other summer days. i dont know why things cant fall exactly as how i wanted it. maybe im running out of patience. i just dont understand why some people can manage to carry everything as if no emotions exist. i thought then that everything is clear between the two of us, after that day of exchange of confessions re what really the hell is going on. the last time i remember that we talked about this high maintenance shit, i was about to turn my back and leave to untangle all the complications ive been dwelling in for the longest time, but he asked for a chance...a chance to do something about it. i learned to just enjoy and simply make the most out of waiting, but then, here he comes talking about the future....he includes me, but those were jokes which i dont even know if somehow those were half meant, but all i know is that it pisses me. i am truly bored, because its hard to manage something like this. keeping a relationship whi