sweet nothings

yesterday was our 2nd month together :) ang saya, im getting to know him better...at wala akong pagsisisi sa lahat lahat... having him in my life is the best decision i have made. instead of the typical celebration, kakaiba ang nangyari kahapon, another phase of our journey... we were both from our duty, but sa kanya was his last duty as an om resident...i feel sad, mamimiss ko ung mga pagsilip silip namin sa isat isa while in the hospital, our meals together, ung paggising ko sa knya ng madaling araw at kunwari manghihiram ng dugo hehehe. good thing, he settled in a nearby place, magkikita pa rin naman kme palagi...yesterday, inayos namin ung place nya, bought things for the room...the first time i saw him grumpy, ang hon mainipin at mejo mainitin din pala ang ulo, very agile dahil allergic sa shopping...hehehehe typical guy. i love watching him do the guy's chore, ung mga pagmamartilyo at pawis pawis tapos magsusungit...hehehe tapos magugutom at masungit ulit... hehe inis na inis

tagal na akong di nakapag post. dami ng nangyari...hmmm surgery rotation is about to end..masaya, sobrang masaya kahit nakakapagod...new friends, people who got closer to me...2 rotations to go and clerkship will finally be over :) hay i just hope i could settle my papers soon para matapos na ang hassle... but the real highlight here eh siempre ang lurve life hehehe...i just cant believe i finally found him after the long wait. at sana eto na talaga... patho rotation has been a blessing, kasi dun nya ko nakita hehehe and the story goes on :) i found my male counterpart, i just cant describe how happy i am right now, really happy, blessed and nothing more to ask for...kumpleto na ang buhay ko :)

We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone— we find it with another. August 24, 2009 Dr. Ike Manuel Flores i found him :) i love you honey...

its been ages since the last time i posted here. after that exhausting IM rotation, finally im having a life again. temporarily no night duties. sarap talaga. im enjoying my derma rotation big time. stress free and pretty people surrounds me. plus weekends off haist nothing beats minors. except of course ENT rotation, haist it scares me. pero that will roughly be a month from now so im going to enjoy first :))

half day today...thanks it was our turn to continue the implementation paper. this day was fairly light thank goodness. i was able to claim my prc id before lunch break, grabbed the ham and cheese sandwich at dunkin donuts which ive been craving for the past days yey, and i was able to meet ayla after more than a year of not seeing her. this day is happy, i was able to do stuff that somehow would make me forget the weekend's not so good experience. we've talked of gossips re- how the people from other wards are doing. it scares me yes, but the thought of it makes me more tired than scared. im still in that state of thinking twice if this is what i really wanted to do. may sound ridiculous but experiencing it first hand would justify it all. i am plainly not happy as of now. and i dont understand power tripping period. im observing how my friends are doing now thru facebook...most of them (probably all of them) are earning their own money, some, have their own families, etc etc

another school year has ended! wow ang katakot takot na exams nagwakas din , (ninamnam ko ang pagshashade sa question #100 ng fcm!)...up for more uninterrupted sleep, more time to get online till sawa, dvd lineup, books galore! gosh daming plano, hahaha. this is a very happy day, finally i was able to breathe, haha ang dami na naman namin kinain kanina plus videoke , plus plano ng mga lakwatsa (na hopefully kahit isa may matupad naman). i fell short ang bilis ng third year dahil super toxic...but with friends, superfriends, megafriends, and kumares around, surpassing everyday hasn't been a problem. weeeeeee weeeeeee!!! uhm tsaka ko na muna iisipin clerkship, parang nakakatakot dun hihi

it finally met its end...no, i finally ended up this long-time piece of shit. and so its true, there is always a saturation point, and when that is reached, everything will change. this is what i was afraid of, not because i cannot let go, but, the moment i walk out, there's no way i will look back...it has been a struggle for the longest time, i must say i have been so brave in taking all the risks and fighting for the person ive been dreaming to be with...but, as time passed by, it became crystal clear that ive been dwelling into a sort of one-way funnel-->you pour it all out too fast, then nothing's left and that's it, IT HAS FOREVER BEEN ONE WAY. im proud of myself because i know ive been patient, brave, hopeful...i have given it all only to learn that he is just not worth it-->simple reason, he is not into me. i thought it would be difficult...yes, who wouldn't have a hard time forgetting the pain of being fooled, and worse i really feel i was USED...when you