through with the 1st chapter of brant. now since ive learned that my exam on sat would include the specialty you have chosen plus general medicine, ive purchased radiology secrets to quickly scan on some important topics. this will all be in the name of faith. i know i should've studied earlier on and there's no other good weapon than a thorough preparation. while scanning on the book, i told myself what is this im doing. really coz if this is what i will do for the rest of my life i should be prepared. di ko talaga alam itong pinapasok ko. it's all in the name of love and practicality. but who knows, God might bring me the good news few days from now. this time around, im letting go of my being keen at details coz sometimes the harder you yearn for it, the farther it goes away, lalong nanggigigil lalong hindi binibigay. I have kept my expectations low and created plan B and plan C. oh well, God and I already agreed, Im letting Him at this point. kung para sa akin then be it. Amen
This entire application process is really tedious. I thought that being called for preres is good enough. Well of course it's just the beginning. Im just exagerrating when i say tired. Actually this observation period is way benign than u could imagine. Post-boards syndrome. Someone i know quitted after one duty (observership). Maybe i feel the same thing. I want a longer break. I want my free time, no responsibilities, no schedule to follow. Maybe i just enjoyed the relief of finishing the entire trail to becoming a doctor that i wanna enjoy it longer. Haist im still praying. Im so lucky actually that some would want to be in my position. But then sometimes following your heart could lead to better results. im still confused.
Comments