today i woke up with my hair still in mousse and hair spray (witch). ive been so tired last night that the last thing i was able to do was brush my teeth and wash my face *sucks*. crammed again, i felt the need to be productive even at its slightest sense. i arranged all my requirements, grouped them all, printed letters etc, and i noticed it's almost lunch time. good thing my ever loving dad volunteered to drive me to my 1st hospital stop (secret muna) to submit my application. But the long line to the cashier took more than 30 mins, after which, the application form was handed to me (by the not so accommodating secretary who address doctors as "miss" duh) and i have to fill it up yet, which took me another 25 mins. i dont know if it was all worth it. im not sure if i really like it there. looks like a busy, uncomfy place. anyways just for the sake of somehow accomplishing something today. another application tom. may God guide me...
This entire application process is really tedious. I thought that being called for preres is good enough. Well of course it's just the beginning. Im just exagerrating when i say tired. Actually this observation period is way benign than u could imagine. Post-boards syndrome. Someone i know quitted after one duty (observership). Maybe i feel the same thing. I want a longer break. I want my free time, no responsibilities, no schedule to follow. Maybe i just enjoyed the relief of finishing the entire trail to becoming a doctor that i wanna enjoy it longer. Haist im still praying. Im so lucky actually that some would want to be in my position. But then sometimes following your heart could lead to better results. im still confused.
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