the past days were on and off struggle to let go...well as expected, its not that easy...it doesnt happen overnight. every morning as i wake up, i pray that i will stop calling, that i will stop texting...owell i just miss him. but still, i am determined to end it up...i know its gonna happen, though it might take some time, but I WILL DO IT. expectations...this put everything into tangled complications, but really as i came to think of it, its as simple as "i expected a lot, held on for too long, given out too much" that's why in the end, i was badly hurt. that's why i dont put all the blame on him, for in the first place, he never promised anything to me...i am the one to blame, because i let him do so. i did not protect myself as how i was warned beforehand. bad addiction to sum it up. i believe i just took the risk because of the hope that MAYBE, something good will happen. no one knows what's next, but my faith will lead me to the right person, i know God has a big plan, a beautiful one...i may have played a role in his life in a way only God knows and likewise he also has a purpose in my life...i love him, i am certain of that, maybe only time can mend what's broken and answer all the questions and give clarity to all of these. i guess this is where patience is much more needed. next time, i will let love find me...
being a big make-up fan, organizing my kikay kit has always been a task...papalit palit kc ako. most of the time i bring big clutch bags to fit in my "koloretes". ang arte talaga hahaha. tuloy i end up also bringing big bags where these clutches would fit in----bag within a bag. pero na-realize ko even when i go to school, ang laki ng dala ko pero majority lng dito pampaarte. ewan ko b naman toxic talaga ako, its like im gonna die if i wouldnt bring my talc in a tall canister and my body splash plus my kikay kit. so ano nga ba ang laman ng mahiwagang kikay kit na ito...the thing why its getting heavy is that i bring things in doubles...2 shades for each hahaha siguro dala na rin ng pagiging fickle-minded ko. pero dahil s katoxican hindi ko rin naman actually nagagamit talaga. kaya nga lately talagang pinapractice ko ang NO TO BIG BAG PROJECT lol. i started unloading the doubles at gawin n lng tig-isa...i even settled for a flip phone at iwanan n muna sa bahay ang bulky pda...
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