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12-28-08

times flies so fast...another year of my life had passed...well 2008 has been a good year to me..i regard it as "sakto". a good balance of good and not so good events.. this day i feel so loved, unfailing greetings really make my heart pound =) and that reminds me that even though something in my life is missing now, i have a lot more reason to ignore that gap and move on with joy because indeed, i am being loved by many people around me, most of all i have a very loving and supporting INTACT family. life's like this, there's no such thing as perfect...maybe what made this day a bit eerie is the fact that i am going through something hurtful right now, and in fact its still fresh. this morning i was able to talk to bau and pour out the emotions ive been keeping up for the past days...he empathized, well coming from a guy, now i know im not exagerrating... what he did was really hurtful, like how a good friend agreed. i know the following days will be better. as i went to church this morning, ive prayed solemnly for one thing, to give me the courage to move on, let go and forgive. it felt better, i know the Lord is with me always, and i am glad that i am able to share this to a friend whose situation is nonetheless similar to mine.

im now a year older, wiser and better...there's nothing more i am asking but be a better person each day of my existence. i know ill be able to do so, without any hatred, without hesitations, someday i am certain, things will fall into places including the love ive been saving...i know i could give more...

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