yesterday, dec 22, me and jp went out on a date **yay** ahahaha what a pleasant surprise. but actually, im not so sure if it's really a nice thing. im a bit bothered on where this one is going..just the other day i was on a big drama and anxiety...gawd, what a complicated situation i am in. sadly, i must admit its the two of us making the complications...ahm, actually its him that's so complicated. whatever, i just enjoyed the moment of being with him. though at some point i was a bit hesitant (well i dont know how to explain the hunches) and one thing more, what makes seeing him a bit wrong is going back to zero on my struggle to somehow detach from him. only God knows the reason...
This entire application process is really tedious. I thought that being called for preres is good enough. Well of course it's just the beginning. Im just exagerrating when i say tired. Actually this observation period is way benign than u could imagine. Post-boards syndrome. Someone i know quitted after one duty (observership). Maybe i feel the same thing. I want a longer break. I want my free time, no responsibilities, no schedule to follow. Maybe i just enjoyed the relief of finishing the entire trail to becoming a doctor that i wanna enjoy it longer. Haist im still praying. Im so lucky actually that some would want to be in my position. But then sometimes following your heart could lead to better results. im still confused.
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