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12-26-08

last night, it was full of tears. i really wanted to let it all out. i will surely miss him. i know ill get through this. this morning as i woke up, things are starting to sink in, no reason at all to greet him good morning, its about time to change the routine, no more gudnyts, no more whining and texting, no one to tell my angst, no more destressor, no one to look forward to talk to as i go home in the afternoon. everything will change, these are the reasons why i do cry a lot...i myself did not notice that that ive been clinging on him this tight already, i thought then as i was telling everyone else that he's no one, just the casual person i am fond of talking to, nothing special, but deep inside, i knew even before that i was just saying this out of shame that despite keeping up a special bond with this person, i am nevertheless, a non-significant person to him. now i let him go, i want him to grow, to realize his faults, and most of all learn to appreciate the people around him, those loving him unconditionally. i dont wanna sound heroic, a martyr, but in all honesty i really cannot feel any sort of anger, just plain sadness and longing, its all about yearning to have him completely, but i guess that won't happen. maybe this is again another story that i have no choice but end up simply because i do not have a choice. ill miss him more...

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ampalaya

im still guilty of being mad. i dont know. pero cguro nga dahil may sumthing p ko sa mokong na un. nagagalit ako. at the same time naiisip ko p rin ung lahat ng nangyari. marami p ring tanong sa isip ko kung bakit nangyari lahat ng to. at ngaun kahit mahigit isang taon na parang pakiramdam ko kelan lng un. pero ang laki n ng pinagbago ng lahat...lalo na siya. lalo na sila...naiinis akong isipin na ako nagkakaganito pero siya ano balewala lahat. worse, mukhang masaya na siya. nakakagalit na ako hindi p rin totally ok....ano ba diba. hanggang kelan ko mararamdaman to. pero sa kabila nun palagi ko p rin siyang naiisip. isang malaking kahibangan. galit ako. nasasaktan ako.

tsk

dami kong gusto ikuwento eh last week pa kaso la ako enough time to blog it out. hay and im not feeling well nilalagnat ako kanina kaya tulog lang ako maghapon. cant wait for vacation...la p kong nagagawa nakakainis para akong nakatira ng isang boteng sleeping pills

hui

amf! binasa ko ung luma kong blogs dun sa friendster hahaha harrruuuuu un ung panahon ampalaya/bitter ocampo pa ako. ayyy grabe halatang hurt galore! at bakit parang ang galing ko mag-english dun! hahaha ganun ata pag pira-piraso ang puso naxxxxxxx mukhang soon ganon na naman ulet tatalino na naman ako hahaha punyeta ang sakit ng ulo ko sarap untog!