last night, it was full of tears. i really wanted to let it all out. i will surely miss him. i know ill get through this. this morning as i woke up, things are starting to sink in, no reason at all to greet him good morning, its about time to change the routine, no more gudnyts, no more whining and texting, no one to tell my angst, no more destressor, no one to look forward to talk to as i go home in the afternoon. everything will change, these are the reasons why i do cry a lot...i myself did not notice that that ive been clinging on him this tight already, i thought then as i was telling everyone else that he's no one, just the casual person i am fond of talking to, nothing special, but deep inside, i knew even before that i was just saying this out of shame that despite keeping up a special bond with this person, i am nevertheless, a non-significant person to him. now i let him go, i want him to grow, to realize his faults, and most of all learn to appreciate the people around him, those loving him unconditionally. i dont wanna sound heroic, a martyr, but in all honesty i really cannot feel any sort of anger, just plain sadness and longing, its all about yearning to have him completely, but i guess that won't happen. maybe this is again another story that i have no choice but end up simply because i do not have a choice. ill miss him more...
ok isa isahin ang issues. una sa lahat...third year na ko! yey....nagbunga din ang pagttiyaga ko. well may isa pa kong inaaspire bukod jan...oh well wag n muna yun. bakasyon na, oh yes panahon upang magsaya, eh peste peste talaga....asan ang happenings! grrrrrrr im so pissed dahil bakit parang hindi itinadhana na magliwaliw ako grrrrrrrrrr..... well hopefully pagkatapos ng grad ng kapatid ko e makapaglamyerda din ako...shit im so bored sobra talaga. parang mababaliw. i just hate empty vacations! dahil hindi ako sanay ng ganito... ang daming iniisip dami kong inaalala...personal stuff...kaliwa't kanan na nakakainis n bagay! GRRRRRRRRRRR punyeta pa isa pa ung lecheng lalake na yun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANG DRAWING DRAWING NIYA!....BAKIT BA LAHAT GANUN HA?!!!! I HATE THIS DAY I HATE THIS WEEK. AT SANA NAMAN MAY MAGANDA NG MANGYARI BEFORE I RUN OUT OF SANITY!
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