last night, it was full of tears. i really wanted to let it all out. i will surely miss him. i know ill get through this. this morning as i woke up, things are starting to sink in, no reason at all to greet him good morning, its about time to change the routine, no more gudnyts, no more whining and texting, no one to tell my angst, no more destressor, no one to look forward to talk to as i go home in the afternoon. everything will change, these are the reasons why i do cry a lot...i myself did not notice that that ive been clinging on him this tight already, i thought then as i was telling everyone else that he's no one, just the casual person i am fond of talking to, nothing special, but deep inside, i knew even before that i was just saying this out of shame that despite keeping up a special bond with this person, i am nevertheless, a non-significant person to him. now i let him go, i want him to grow, to realize his faults, and most of all learn to appreciate the people around him, those loving him unconditionally. i dont wanna sound heroic, a martyr, but in all honesty i really cannot feel any sort of anger, just plain sadness and longing, its all about yearning to have him completely, but i guess that won't happen. maybe this is again another story that i have no choice but end up simply because i do not have a choice. ill miss him more...
habang nagchichikahan kame ni jaja last night dahil sa mga pangyayaring di ko inaasahan (kinukuwento ko ung mga buraot) naputol ang usap dahil manonood daw siya ng the pursuit of happiness. ayun nakinuod na rin ako. kuwento ni Chris Gardner....hay, nakakalungkot pero talagang na-inspire ako sa movie na to....NAKAKABILIB. ang igsi lng nung movie pero talagang heart warming. pero isa siguro sa na-reflect ko eh ung FOCUS. sobrang focused niya kasi sa goal niya, kung ano ang gusto niya un lang talaga. wala lang, naisip ko lang dapat ganon din ako hehehe. nakakaiyak ung scene na sa banyo sila natulog mag-ama.....hay, nakakalungkot isipin na may mga taong nakakaexperience ng ganon....pero lahat ng hirap nila, talagang nag pay off din naman =) sipag talaga at diskarte...wahehehe apektado daw talaga ako sa movie, di ko kasi napanood yan dati eh hehe =) TRUE STORY siya galing!
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