sweet nothings

And black gown, ehem :-) I enjoyed the PAMET's golden anniv, not only the dressing-up part but the extravagant performances by popular performers as well. A night of showcasing musical talents and honoring the pillars of the association. Best part, just sitting back with mi amore and together we enjoyed the wonderful serenades 😘

Hi! One post per year...how pathetic. Anyway better to have an entry than nada! Recently, I got admitted in the hospital because of DHF (Dengue Hemorrhagic Fever). My first time after 29 years of existence to actually become an in-patient. It was bad, platelets almost dropped to 33, got bursted capillaries in my extremities, minimal pleural effusion, and very poor appetite. Back then, I find this sickness an overrated one. Being a doctor, and a medtech, I've seen so many cases. Dropping platelets, recurrent fever, watch out for signs of bleeding...hydrate hydrate hydrate. I know the pathophysiology, the treatment, all the works. It's different when a doctor becomes the patient. True as everyone says, doctors are indeed the most difficult patients. At the start of my fever, I knew it was a different one, not the ordinary SVI or URTI. After taking in broad spectrum antibiotics, the fever won't go away. My friend, who happens to be an IM resident kept on asking if maybe t...

it's been a while really since my last post. ive been too lazy since i started with my residency training. apart from the fact that i almost live in the hospital premises 24/7, i just felt there's nothing much to share except for the roller coaster ride of emotions i have been through these past months. latest about me, getting ready for another local trip this month with friends and boyfie. it's part of our 4th year anniversary celebration. will update this blog soon and will try my VERY BEST to post more often.

obviously, no time to post! blah

it's been almost 3 mos of being officially a first yr resident. so far im ok. im missing lot's of friends from med school, but im starting to meet new friends at work. ive been busy, but fair for a jumpstart :) hoping that everything is well until i finish.

A day before my birthday, Ike came here in Manila to take me out on a date. We went to MOA to give Vikings a try. Unluckily, the place was jam-packed with large groups of people. On our way to the reservation counter, I overheard the receptionist that most of the guests had their reservations two weeks ago...ooohhh watda...We went back to the mall and ate buffet in a different resto. The walk was becoming painful, we decided to transfer to Robinson's. The movie house was also full. Not our lucky day. Day 2, my birthday...after visiting the church we went for a lunch date at Cyma :)Chicken gyro is Ike insisted that he wants to buy me a gift since the other day. He's the person who prefers giving a gift handpicked by me and not him, we ended up with a lovely wallet from xoxo and a blush from Nars :D The birthday dinner itself became a mini reunion especially with my college friends. It's nice to see good old friends. Unluckily, many were not able to attend. But the...

ive been eyeing this set for quite some time...nanghihinayang lang tlga akong bilhin. since my sister sent us lots of make-ups and my other sissy bought online, i saw this being sold by the same ebay seller where she will buy so i decided to grab it. Time for my Lancome brushes to rest hehehe

Panic! We were told that there will be an exchange of tokens for co-residents and fellows a week before the party. It was a short notice that i got to worry what to give, not to mention the need to cut the budget since we are the ones who will shoulder the food (first year ehem). Thanks to my shopaholic prowess, i know where to find stuffs at a lower price. The secret to mass gift-giving is buying in bulk. Since i was short of time, there's no chance I could go to Divisoria and tiyangges to find cheap stuff. Besides, going there during this season is really "buwis-buhay" LOL... For the girls, I find it easier to find kikay gifts that could also be useful at the same time. These are Bath and Body works vanity case worth $10 each, i got them in bulk together with Victoria's Secret and Clinique cosmetic cases. Lot of 20 for only Php960 at Ebay. Thanks to my favorite seller http://myworld.ebay.ph/jnlink777 for saving the day! I also added up these Bon Bons fl...

last night we were finally able to reunite. jaja, tian jen, tel minus sheng and esthy. fun fun fun. nakakamiss ang rashberries. chismisan, food trip, sayang we were not able to watch a movie. looking forward to more bonding sessions even though we're already out of med school. how time flies... :D but it's just like meeting up the other day, no dull moment :D

today i am home early. dropped by the mall and grabbed a new pair of flats 50% off the price. i finally purchased sm advantage card.bought a new concealer and an eyelash curler...then dropped by the grocery to buy ingredients for salsa and of course tortilla chips :D yey i am successful in my first attempt to make salsa :D the wonder of retail therapy :D happiness :)btw thanks our intern who taught us how to make one

the sched is finally in favor of me. half day last friday, no work for sat, home early last sunday, sent home early today, was able to see ike and watch the breaking dawn. had lunch and dinner together. received a good news that a dear friend is engaged. seems like a good way to start the week. well i still feel the need to catch up some reading and take it more seriously. waiting for some announcements tom. :D gudnytie

Signs that it’s time to end a relationship… You have a feeling of continuous frustration about the relationship (E.g., your emotional needs are not being met) You’re finding more reasons to spend time apart You’re being emotionally abused You no longer have strong feelings about your partner but reminisce about the feelings you used to have You’ve changed your core values, beliefs and goals to accommodate your partner in hopes that your relationship will no longer be problematic You’ve made drastic changes in your appearance hoping your partner will find you more attractive You have a growing feeling of emptiness You’ve put extreme distance or totally cut off former close relationships you used to have with your other friends and/or family

24th, our 26th month as a couple, we decided to take a trip to tagaytay. hehe ike who lived in baguio for almost his entire life havent seen the beauty of tagaytay yet :P we headed to Leslie's and enjoyed our afternoon there with their famous bulalo :)) simple joys...

26th of oct around 8pm, i received a call from dr fernandez....the first time i picked up it was choppy, he called again. "leiza pwede ka na ba pumasok sa november 2? me: ahhh yes doc...."tanggap na kayong tatlo" ok this was least expected. i actually took it as negative when he texted about the delay of results. i already asked for a sched this november at biomedics. but then, maybe this is God's will. everything that has happened was part of a bigger plan. im happy, and at the same time i feel at a lost and anxious. ill take it from ike, just live it one day at a time. i wish everything will just be fine. bahala na :D to God be the Glory. this is for my family :))

im back from my last week's drama. God is super good! i only asked for at least 4 reliever status and yet he gave me more than double. just when i expected it least i was given work while waiting for residency result. :)) really hopeful to have the results this week. it's really easier when you earn and preoccupied by a busy day. no time for drama. in fact i am enjoying and considering doing this for a longer time. at least if ever i wouldnt be accepted i have a job waiting for me :)) no unproductive gaps...nways looking forward to seeing ike today. Good Monday and Good Morning!!! Life is fun :))

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received an sms earlier today regarding my application status..."doctors good day. we will have to delay our final decision for our 1st year residents. we will make our decision by the last week of october and inform you asap. sorry for the delay" at first my innocent mind said oh ok so wishful thinking and patience then. but when i talked to ike, i started to think the other way...what if there's something else. 3 slots, for 3 applicants, what other cause might be there. why will it take that long before they could finally decide?  what if they dont feel like having us. another thing popped in my mind, i shouldnt have let go of the other opportunities. but who could have told me ayt? everything ran for almost same schedules. i regret not continuing my preres to that other hospital who contacted me again last week. and now i dont have the guts to contact them to ask again for another chance, since they have been too kind to have offered that to me already....moving on, i ...

finally nakakaramdam na ako ng gutom! ive been anxious since last night. good thing ike rehearsed me for today's final interview. it went on for around 10 minutes. and then that's it. i think i was able to answer fast, everything was from the heart, not the chaka miss universe answers. the questions were not so pressing, nor not provocative for me to answer plastic answers. i think it really works to just be yourself. in that way, everything will be superfluous. ive been palpitating since i took a cup of coffee this morning, and ive been cursing it, but eventually i realized it helped me in becoming attentive and alert during the Q and A :) again, i feel nothing. i expect none. whatever the result will be i think i did my best :) God will give me the answer soon. im ready for whatever outcome to unfold. :P

tomorrow is my final interview. done with the two weeks of observation period. of course the usual, not everyone there seems nice. but i guess wherever i go, jerks are along the way. maybe the only difference is how subtle other jerks could be. again, i am plainly emotionless. i don't want to anticipate anything. no expectations, no whatever. like ike said, this is a roadless map... the past days i took the chance to rest. i started on thinking about future plans, but then, what works for me is living for today. plans are good, but i don't want to keep on dwelling on the future. sudden unexpected changes may ruin it anyways. I'll let God this time. just keeping the faith going :) Uberrimei fidei Of the utmost good faith

This entire application process is really tedious. I thought that being called for preres is good enough. Well of course it's just the beginning. Im just exagerrating when i say tired. Actually this observation period is way benign than u could imagine. Post-boards syndrome. Someone i know quitted after one duty (observership). Maybe i feel the same thing. I want a longer break. I want my free time, no responsibilities, no schedule to follow. Maybe i just enjoyed the relief of finishing the entire trail to becoming a doctor that i wanna enjoy it longer. Haist im still praying. Im so lucky actually that some would want to be in my position. But then sometimes following your heart could lead to better results. im still confused.