received an sms earlier today regarding my application status..."doctors good day. we will have to delay our final decision for our 1st year residents. we will make our decision by the last week of october and inform you asap. sorry for the delay" at first my innocent mind said oh ok so wishful thinking and patience then. but when i talked to ike, i started to think the other way...what if there's something else. 3 slots, for 3 applicants, what other cause might be there. why will it take that long before they could finally decide? what if they dont feel like having us. another thing popped in my mind, i shouldnt have let go of the other opportunities. but who could have told me ayt? everything ran for almost same schedules. i regret not continuing my preres to that other hospital who contacted me again last week. and now i dont have the guts to contact them to ask again for another chance, since they have been too kind to have offered that to me already....moving on, i must find a way. if not soon then maybe next year...im just starting to prepare myself for whatever worse thing that could happen. haist....life was easier then. my only wish right now is to have a work for the next two weeks, or better if more than that.
This entire application process is really tedious. I thought that being called for preres is good enough. Well of course it's just the beginning. Im just exagerrating when i say tired. Actually this observation period is way benign than u could imagine. Post-boards syndrome. Someone i know quitted after one duty (observership). Maybe i feel the same thing. I want a longer break. I want my free time, no responsibilities, no schedule to follow. Maybe i just enjoyed the relief of finishing the entire trail to becoming a doctor that i wanna enjoy it longer. Haist im still praying. Im so lucky actually that some would want to be in my position. But then sometimes following your heart could lead to better results. im still confused.
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