26th of oct around 8pm, i received a call from dr fernandez....the first time i picked up it was choppy, he called again. "leiza pwede ka na ba pumasok sa november 2? me: ahhh yes doc...."tanggap na kayong tatlo" ok this was least expected. i actually took it as negative when he texted about the delay of results. i already asked for a sched this november at biomedics. but then, maybe this is God's will. everything that has happened was part of a bigger plan. im happy, and at the same time i feel at a lost and anxious. ill take it from ike, just live it one day at a time. i wish everything will just be fine. bahala na :D to God be the Glory. this is for my family :))
im still guilty of being mad. i dont know. pero cguro nga dahil may sumthing p ko sa mokong na un. nagagalit ako. at the same time naiisip ko p rin ung lahat ng nangyari. marami p ring tanong sa isip ko kung bakit nangyari lahat ng to. at ngaun kahit mahigit isang taon na parang pakiramdam ko kelan lng un. pero ang laki n ng pinagbago ng lahat...lalo na siya. lalo na sila...naiinis akong isipin na ako nagkakaganito pero siya ano balewala lahat. worse, mukhang masaya na siya. nakakagalit na ako hindi p rin totally ok....ano ba diba. hanggang kelan ko mararamdaman to. pero sa kabila nun palagi ko p rin siyang naiisip. isang malaking kahibangan. galit ako. nasasaktan ako.
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