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everytime im thinking of taking time to do this journal, i don't know, my mind seems so scattered and i end forgetting taking a pause to do this. im thinking lots of things, too much plans, mental hyperactivity as always. though its not obvious coz im not really doing much of the physical stuff.

these past few days, i had a pleasant mood, and yet as the dark approaches, my temper changes again...in short tinotopak na naman ako. i really wonder sometimes, why do i experience such nonsense mood swings. the thing is, its all bout grudges. well unresolved issues i guess. and for the rest of my life that could be forever unresolved.

i really wanted to accomplish something academic with this time left before going back to the toxic world. but then, im a bit hesitant coz i also dont wanna spoil this once a year break. hai, maybe i should get back to bed.

and by the way, i really feel relieved, i had a loooongggg sleep, and i always fail to do so. sleeping disorder i guess.

im sleepy again LOLZ

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