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im having a tremendously scattered mind right now. hypoglycemic mind...haha. ive been thinking of plans a while ago, and i realized i only have 2 weeks to finally face the awaiting world of toxicity...huh again..im taking a look at the books placed neatly on my shelves. sealed originally...i feel not ready to open these yet.


anyways, ignore school stuff first...im feeling dizzy. and i cant sleep. i dont wanna eat and i dont wanna sleep. good thing sumone's txting me ryt now. im in bad need of sum1 to talk to. how ironic, when people are around reaching me thru ym etc im not in a mood for conversations. so here i am, blabbering alone. now seeing the value of what im losing haha


the past days, ive been dealing with these damn emotions again. i had a good cry though. crying myself to sleep. isnt that nice. well a good way of flushing out all the pathetically ill feelings.


gotta end up here...my mind is getting ________________________________________.

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