sweet nothings

im still guilty of being mad. i dont know. pero cguro nga dahil may sumthing p ko sa mokong na un. nagagalit ako. at the same time naiisip ko p rin ung lahat ng nangyari. marami p ring tanong sa isip ko kung bakit nangyari lahat ng to. at ngaun kahit mahigit isang taon na parang pakiramdam ko kelan lng un. pero ang laki n ng pinagbago ng lahat...lalo na siya. lalo na sila...naiinis akong isipin na ako nagkakaganito pero siya ano balewala lahat. worse, mukhang masaya na siya. nakakagalit na ako hindi p rin totally ok....ano ba diba. hanggang kelan ko mararamdaman to. pero sa kabila nun palagi ko p rin siyang naiisip. isang malaking kahibangan. galit ako. nasasaktan ako.

"Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain, the normal pains we live with everyday. Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else... makes the rest of the world fade away, until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain, we anesthesize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it. and for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it" its been ages since i blogged out certain issues bout my personal life. bout the dramas of my freakin love life. its been over a year now. i have so far reached the point of really getting over. but for unexplained reason, there still comes emptiness. that feeling of sadness that couldn't be relieved by long talks or long walks and shopping. :( pushing through the pain. im guilty of this. instead of avoiding the things i wasnt suppose to see or look back, its so stubborn of me that ...

hay kumusta naman akala ko nga rin sembreak na eh. LOL. sarap ng buhay. pero next week patay patayan naman sa makeups wahhhhhhhhh. hay pero i really enjoy curling up, mag hibernate sa ilalim ng mga unan at kumot haha. at kumain ng korean noodles habang pinapakinggan ang patak ng ulan. this is life. . . im enjoying this for now dahil minsan lang itech. ang masama lang nito wala akong nagagawa! walang nababasa hahahaha....MASYADONG MALAKAS ANG KAPANGYARIHAN NG BAGYO....parang lullaby haaayyyyyy

gosh surgery exam naman tom and more exams til sat. ala nakakapagod. tuloy puro palpak exams ko. kung kelan naman shifting napaka lethargic ko. yeah ganyan kaantok sobra. kakainis kakapagod, pero no choice...sabi nga ng friend ko were not studying med to learn ABCs...yeah right eh ano pala hehe master the art of insomnia?? mali, of sleeping and cramming LOLZ. ang sakit na sa ulo hayyyy at talaga daw nagbblog pa ko sa gitna ng katoxican. la lang eh kakapagod pa eh. nako aral n nga ko.