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03-25-09

half day today...thanks it was our turn to continue the implementation paper. this day was fairly light thank goodness. i was able to claim my prc id before lunch break, grabbed the ham and cheese sandwich at dunkin donuts which ive been craving for the past days yey, and i was able to meet ayla after more than a year of not seeing her.

this day is happy, i was able to do stuff that somehow would make me forget the weekend's not so good experience.

we've talked of gossips re- how the people from other wards are doing. it scares me yes, but the thought of it makes me more tired than scared. im still in that state of thinking twice if this is what i really wanted to do. may sound ridiculous but experiencing it first hand would justify it all.

i am plainly not happy as of now. and i dont understand power tripping period. im observing how my friends are doing now thru facebook...most of them (probably all of them) are earning their own money, some, have their own families, etc etc...i dont know but part of me felt envious of the lesser burden they're going through...i feel as if this life i have chosen is the more difficult path when in reality an easier one is waiting for me...whenever i feel this way, i bear in mind that patience is a virtue....problem is, i still dont know if the fruit of all sacrifices would really be as sweet as how i have thought, probably not until i already have it...

the worse is yet to come...

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