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7-11

everything's fast. its now july, whew and honestly im having a fair share of toxicity. what's new haha! highlights of this week, was able to finish our pedia precep (which btw was just squeezed in d sched, the paper is not finished yet! only the warding =S) uhm the community crap, presented the med precep, and of course, through with the med long test. whew. lots of things to do. and i always look forward to my rest day, friday. finally going to bed without thinking much. gawd please i hate to think! i ended this week with joy. like what i was telling my friend early this evening, happiness is created! haha and im a mighty creator in that sense. well simple joys for some, but a matter of reward for us med students. had a yummy early dinner today, got myself stuffs of happiness for this week (????? nonsense worldly stuff haha)...im just so lucky to somehow be able to manage, coz if not, ill be so burned out i swear!

i remember earlier this week, got almost drained because of the things i need to finish, plus the hassles of everything! grrrr whine whine whine! whenever im up in the middle of the night contemplating how things run in my life, im having thoughts of whether this is what i really wanted. realizing that i still have a long way to go, and even if i get there, still it wouldnt be easy. but whenever im in front of a patient, i just feel good thinking that the sacrifices im having for now would benefit many in the near future. somehow it eases the frustrations and stress, there's no one to help me but myself. argh, emoshit! i just feel so drained, i really wanted to enjoy, i miss going out, i miss the easy life. in times like this i long for something that's missing. -------->>>> IM SLEEPY

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