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whew plakda ako. we had a surgical mission today at singalong. hehe first time nagtuli (late bloomer) eh kasi naman nung na-invite kami last year di nman kme umabot ni vego dahil galing sa swimming.

oh well masaya nman, kakapagod nga lang. pero ang saya kasi mababait ung mga kasama, and ang sarap pa ng food ( thanks kay bam and her family and sa chairman) hehe pero super ang init wah... this has been a long day =) and hopefully next week sasama ulit ako.

well for the nth time naiinis na naman ako sa kanya. shet hirap ala na talaga to, nararamdaman ko na nasa stage of decline na talaga to, tsk tsk and honestly kahit nabubuwisit akong aminin sa sarili ko, nasasaktan at nahihirapan din ako. tagal ko ng tinitiis to, shit talaga, samantalang dati i never even had a good impression on him, pucha hinayaan ko pang magtagal itong drawing na affair na to. shit kasi, bakit pa kailangang magbitiw ng mga ganong salita at pigilan ako na tigilan na to, ang plastik naman kasi, duh ok lang naman kasi talaga, mas nakakabuwisit na mag end up na ako na naman ung naunahan. bakit ba kasi napakatiyaga ko, nakikita ko n nga ung mga flaw nakukuha ko pa ring palampasin.

pero ha habang tumatagal, nakikita ko how rude he is. ah basta, in so many ways annoying na talaga. lalo lang napprove ung impression ko dati na mayabang (uber) pati na rin ang negative impression sa kaniya ng nakakarami. tsk tsk sayang ang chance na binigay ko. putang inang chance naman oh! akalain mo twice nangyari ung chance na yun, eh ang bobo ko pinagtyagaan ko pa rin, kasi akalain mo ba na umabot n ng mahigit isang taon. kahit diyosa ako, pusong tao p rin ko. sino ba namang hindi maaattach nun diba.

ang kinakatakot ko lang, ako ang taong pag nawalan ng gana, WALA na talaga. irreversible. napakatagal bago mangyari un (i.e. pag nasagad to the bones lang talaga ang pasensiya ko) at palapit na siya ng palapit dun.

sinayang lang niya lahat. nakakapagod na. TAENA ibang level sa pagddrawing tong isang to, LINTEK FINE ARTS HA FINE ARTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had a wonderful day and a ruined night!!!!

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