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5-18-08

bakit kaya ganon, habang nagtatagal parang nakakasawa na. nakakawalang gana. ang hirap ng malayo lang reinforcement, basta wala talagang kwenta. ang masaklap lumilipas ang lahat ng parang ganon lang na parang balewala lang lahat ng effort at pagpapasensiya. pakiramdam ko walang saysay lahat. gusto kong magalit mabuwisit, pero sawang sawa na ko, dahil sa huli ganon pa rin naman ang kalalabasan ng lahat. mawawala rin siya, gaya nilang lahat.

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